Do you know how depressing it is to know your 7 month old daughter is growing up quickly while you are sitting here helplessly waiting to go get her? How many "firsts" are we missing? They grow so quickly at this age. There are so many things I want to teach her. So many things she is doing that I want to see. So many moments in her precious life that we are missing. I am just so unbelievably sad.
Pretty much everyone I have seen who got their referral the same time as us have their TA. We still do not. Our agency says it is some stupid "new procedure" the CCAA has that is retroactive to Jan 1, 2009. What does this mean? I don't know. All I know is that people who received their referral after us, who would also be past the Jan 1 2009 "procedure" have their TA and we DO NOT! This makes no sense to me. Something is screwy!
Our agency is going to try and contact the CCAA tonight to see what's up. I hope they come up with an answer to this. I am making myself sick worrying about it. If we don't travel by March 15th I am gonna go kung-fu on someone. I may literally go psycho on somone! Ya just don't get between a momma and her baby!
Just give me my baby for goodness sake! She is growing so quickly. It just makes me so unbelievably sad. I am on the verge of breaking down crying at any moment throughout the day. This is so hard. I just want my baby!