This year is my 15 year high School Reunion! Holy Crap! Where did those 15 years go?
I am freaking out about this. Why? not because I have gained 60 lbs since graduation (mostly due to infertility and depression!!!)... not because I can't stand the people I graduated with... It is because at our 10 year reunion it hit me in the face. These people I graduated high school with already have 3-4 kids. It is really depressing. I have been so stressed out about this-- I can't even begin to tell you. I really don't think I am going to go. I know I will end up crying the whole drive there and the whole drive home. I tried to explain this to my cousin/bff/classmate when I went to see her last weekend. Her reply - "There will be activities when people won't bring their kids! Just come to those!" And I know that! But the thought still irks me. Just seeing these people who are my age who have so easily popped out their kids hurts me. It was difficult for me to go and visit her last weekend with her two beautiful kids. I love them to death but it hurts me. And it is nothing they have done or anything they can help. but I can't get past the feelings of having empty arms after 15 years!
Me (on the left), my friend Michelle and My bff Emily (who I went to see last weekend!)
My class at Graduation. I am on the far left 2nd row from the bottom. And, ironically, my husband's brother is standing right next to me on the same row. Click on this pic to see bigger.
Our 10 year reunion. I am in the middle row turquoise shirt.