Friday, August 24, 2007

Mother Teresa's Letters Revealed

“I am told God lives in me — and yet the reality of darkness and coldness and emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul,” . . . . “I want God with all the power of my soul — and yet between us there is terrible separation.” . . . . “I feel just that terrible pain of loss, of God not wanting me, of God not being God, of God not really existing.” . . . . "I utter words of community prayers -- and try my utmost to get out of every word the sweetness it has to give -- but my prayer of union is not there any longer -- I no longer pray."

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I don't know what everyone else thinks of this, but for me, it gave me a feeling of peace to know that even Mother Teresa doubted her faith at some point in her life. There are just some times when I find it difficult to pray. After so much loss and withholding with no ray of sunshine the face of God fades. I understand Mother Teresa's letters. I am sure it was difficult for her to find the rays of sunshine amidst the poverty surrounding her throughout her life. When you see so much loss and sadness, it is hard to believe there is a reason for it. Everyone tells me God has a reason for everything. Sometimes I just find this hard to believe. And so, it sounds, did Mother Teresa. She continued on through her darkness to bring hope to millions even though she didn't always believe it herself. A saint, some ask? In my eyes? yes.


amy said...

What a beautiful post and I agree, its comforting to know that even she had doubts

Carol said...

needed to see this today. Thanks for the post.

redmaryjanes said...

I am so glad to see how you are translating this. I too see this as a sign of her humanity. The Christian walk can feel barren at times and yet she continued on. She faced the greatest suffering and misery in this world. I can understand how she would feel despair at times.
I have been quite angry over news agencies who have reported this with a spin that she was false and only giving an act regarding her beliefs in God.
To me she was a complete inspiration and an absolutely beautiful soul. I'm not even Catholic, but I hold her in highest regard.

Michelle M said...

Thank you for posting so eloquently. I know the wait for our little one has both strengthened and tested my faith and it really is nice to see that Mother Theresa also questioned hers at times but continued to go forward with love and compassion.
Michelle M
DH Dan
LID 1/13/06

Shannon S said...

Fascinating and comforting.
PS I tagged you for a meme if you would like to participate. =)

Mom of 5 said...

Great post!
A saint for sure.